Dieting thoughts:
Made it through the afternoon yesterday without a snack, but did have one before bed…I need to control between meal snacking with good options. Anyway, strength-training is a lot more fun than cardio and I plan on doing some more tonight! I like the challenge and the thought of getting stronger and more defined. I am amaze that I have the discipline to do the work on my own…all this time I thought I needed an instructor on a dvd to tell me what to do.
Lifestyle changes:
Anyway, I realize that I need to stop kicking myself in the head about my weight. I keep berating myself for letting myself get this far again…but what I need to remember is that when I gained and lost weight the first time, I never acknowledged my successful and still saw myself as a fat girl, so it was too easy to put it back on to prove my negative thinking right. Well now I am working on seeing myself as a thin girl who go a little lazy in the area of discipline but is getting back on track. I now realize that I will never loose this weight if I continue to see myself through “fat-glasses”.
In looking back over the sizes of clothing I have bought both thin and fat…it is sad that I really never knew what size I really was because I was so hell bent on buying my clothes two sizes too big constantly. I use to fight my Twin every time we went shopping because I would swear up and down I was a certain size and would march right into Lane Bryant to shop and get then offended if the women in there gave me dirty looks. Just recently I went shopping with my friend Princeton and it took her ten minutes to convince that buying a larger sweater was not a good idea. So, I am going to work on my body-image distortions.
Dieting Highs:
Not being hungry after lunch today
Dieting Lows:
Not drinking enough water.
Weight Watch:
Current weight: 185.0
Yesterday’s weight: 185.8
Goal weight: 150.0
Made it through the afternoon yesterday without a snack, but did have one before bed…I need to control between meal snacking with good options. Anyway, strength-training is a lot more fun than cardio and I plan on doing some more tonight! I like the challenge and the thought of getting stronger and more defined. I am amaze that I have the discipline to do the work on my own…all this time I thought I needed an instructor on a dvd to tell me what to do.
Lifestyle changes:
Anyway, I realize that I need to stop kicking myself in the head about my weight. I keep berating myself for letting myself get this far again…but what I need to remember is that when I gained and lost weight the first time, I never acknowledged my successful and still saw myself as a fat girl, so it was too easy to put it back on to prove my negative thinking right. Well now I am working on seeing myself as a thin girl who go a little lazy in the area of discipline but is getting back on track. I now realize that I will never loose this weight if I continue to see myself through “fat-glasses”.
In looking back over the sizes of clothing I have bought both thin and fat…it is sad that I really never knew what size I really was because I was so hell bent on buying my clothes two sizes too big constantly. I use to fight my Twin every time we went shopping because I would swear up and down I was a certain size and would march right into Lane Bryant to shop and get then offended if the women in there gave me dirty looks. Just recently I went shopping with my friend Princeton and it took her ten minutes to convince that buying a larger sweater was not a good idea. So, I am going to work on my body-image distortions.
Dieting Highs:
Not being hungry after lunch today
Dieting Lows:
Not drinking enough water.
Weight Watch:
Current weight: 185.0
Yesterday’s weight: 185.8
Goal weight: 150.0
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